Akanksha Mategaonkar

I’m confined to this dark blue curtain,
Which shows me new lights everyday
They shine so beautifully, but I know I can’t touch them.
They may bruise these hands which often ask for anything that brings happiness.

This metal beast slowly shows signs of weakness.
It has given me so much that I forget about the distance I keep from home now.
It has given me life and the will to survive this confinement.
I float in this beast, forgetting what my body looks like.
How my skin used to define my body and how I used to love it.
And how it feels hollow now.

Age and time have held hands and fled far away from me.
They never looked back to come sit with me and talk to me.
Maybe they went home to meet you.

I wonder what home looks like now.
I wonder if that  cobbled street is still there
If my room still holds my fragrance
If the city has slept yet
If you look up at the sky and wonder where I might be.

I have got used to this confinement.
The beast often talks to me and asks how I’m doing.
I always have the same answer-“never been better!”

I know I wont see home again
So make sure to welcome my soul with a proud smile when it comes to you.
I know I wont see home again
Because the beast told me that it is time.
I know I wont see home again
But make sure it stays the way I left it.
I know I wont see home again
But make sure to look up at the sky wonder where I might be.